princessofmars

2010-06-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

I'm happy knowing that you are mine

The grass is greener on the other side

The more I think the more I wish

That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce
Uh oh oh

You make me happy whether you know it or not

We should be happy that's what I said from the start

I am so happy knowing you are the one

That I want for the rest of my days

For the rest of my days

You're all of my days

2010-06-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

You say it's not what you do,
It's what you're thinkin' of
Well I think it's just an excuse
It's what you put across
And I don't wanna be the one
Only overjoyed
Yeah I don't wanna be the one
Makin' all the noise
Yeah I don't wanna be the one

2010-06-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

2010-05-24T02:00:00.001+08:00

One day you'll realize that you need me,
and you'll come running back.
That day, I'll have the pleasure in seeing your smile fade,
when you see I've turned my back

2010-05-24T01:48:00.001+08:00

CONGRATULATION to our lovely SANDRA! :D

one wonderful night with drunk and high.

2010-03-30T00:43:00.003+08:00

2010-03-23T16:02:00.001+08:00

You can be happy tomorrow.
You can be happy when you get through your list of things to do.
You can be happy when you meet the one.
You can be happy when you get the right job.
You can be happy when you get that raise.
You can be happy when you stop buying the things you need
and start buying the things you want.
You can be happy when you retire.
You can be happy when the weather suits you.
You can be happy on a plane.
You can be happy in the rain.
or you can stop reading this,
take a deep breath,
and be happy right now.

2010-03-08T14:33:00.002+08:00

I’ll tell you what the end of the world will be like. It will be a final moment; both terrible & heartbreaking. Absolute chaos. People running as fast as they ever have, cars filling every road & freeway, phone lines backed up trying to process millions of calls, fingers flying over keyboards, thumbs texting like rapid fire, long lines of people trying to cram themselves into subways & airplanes. All of them trying to tell someone else, “i love you”. It’s not the end of the world yet. but don’t wait until then to tell her. The worst thing isn’t the end of the world. It’s what you didn’t finish; what you didn’t say when you had the chance.

2010-03-08T14:33:00.001+08:00

So I’ll be up late at night thinking of you and your little smiles
Because you’ve got a funny way of keeping me hanging on
That’s not really funny at all.

2010-03-05T09:28:00.003+08:00

I'm sick and tired of people going to you all the time. It sucks to know that it has to be you! why is that so?! I don't know why.... and so knwing that everyone will go to you in any way so im just gonna stop lovin. it's a heartache and my heartbreaks all the time.

2010-02-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

If you were falling, then I would catch you
You need a light, I'd find a match

Cuz I love the way you say good morning
And you take me the way I am

If you are chilly, here take my sweater
Your head is aching; I'll make it better

Cuz I love the way you call me baby
And you take me the way I am

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair
Sew on patches to all you tear

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise
And you take me the way I am
You take me the way I am
You take me the way I am

2010-02-22T02:35:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I just dont understand why I still have that feelings towards you. Even if you dont love or care about me. It got me to tears when I realise I was loving you so much but all alone. I am pathetic I know. People dont see why I spend my whole bloody day texting you while I could text someone of their likes. It hurts a lot when only you I ever wanted to give my heart to but you pushed it away just like that. I want only you and no one else. (here's to you, onelesslonelygirl)

2010-02-22T02:09:00.000+08:00

Here’s to (one less lonely girl, you know who you are)

do you really want to know the truth?
i think about you everyday.
not just everyday, but all day everyday.
i cant get you out of my head and it hurts
because i know i cant have you.

maybe you wouldnt act the way you do
if you had any idea just how much you mean to me.

2010-02-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

2010-02-16T15:34:00.004+08:00

2010-02-09T03:00:00.003+08:00

the only reason i wake up at six in the morning
take a shower
eat when i'm not hungry
and take a school bus with a bunch of dorks
is for you

if i tell you i love you,
can i keep you forever?

i will never let you fall
i'll stand up with you forever

Were you scared that for once, just for once,
I could be that one girl that will stay by your side?
That one girl that will see your flaws & learn to love it?
That one girl that will fight until the very very end for you?
That one special girl who will unlock the lock to your heart?

You’re the million reasons why
there's love reflected in my eyes

Imature love says:
I love you, because I need you.
Mature love says:
I need you, because I love you

honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid
then you're not willing to be in love.

You'll forever be my heart's strongest weakness.

Missing someone is a part of loving them.
If you're never apart, then you will never
know how strong your love really is.

&& I love you because,
you make me smile
when i dont want too,
laugh when im crying
happy when you say i love you

2010-02-09T02:56:00.000+08:00

Caution;
i may have the sudden urge to
kiss you. be prepared.

2010-02-09T02:52:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUWEN!!!

2010-02-09T01:52:00.004+08:00

just something that came across my mind. hehe :D

situation1
a little of effort made to please others will make it a whole lot better situation. but at times sacrificing something might help. after making such efforts you will get busted by people who might just as well lie to please others. haha confusing but somehow you will understand it. if you encounter such complications.

situation2
believing or trusting a friend isnt that difficult if it starts from you being true to yourself.

2010-02-09T01:30:00.002+08:00

The most difficult phase of your life is not when no one understands you;
it's when you don't understand yourself.

everyday i'm loosing hope
and each minute that passes by
gives me another reason to give up

the day i met you, my life changed. the way
you make me feel is too hard to explain. you
make me smile in a special kind of way. you
make me fall deeper for you, everyday. &
when i look into your eyes, i know it`s true -
there`s no one else in the world for me but you.

2010-01-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

You know you love me
I know you care
And I would never, not be there
You are my love
You are my heart
And we would never ever ever be apart.

For you, I would have done whatever
and no i can't believe we're not together
And I'm gonn' play it cool
While I'm losin you
I'll buy you anything
I'll buy you any ring
Cause I'm in pieces
so come fix me
shake me til' you can wake me from this bad dream*
I'm goin down, down, dooown

You can give me all of your love
just this time it wont be enough
Nobody told me this day would come
Now I'm all gone
You can give me all of your love
just this time it wont be enough
Nobody told me this day would come

2010-01-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

where are you love? are you asleep? even if people are against it than heck it! I aint givin up. whats the point of giving up smth i love most and that makes me happy.

2010-01-21T18:36:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just dont understand you. puhlease tell me you hate me so i'll go away forever!

2010-01-21T18:28:00.000+08:00

But sometimes acting happy
Makes you hurt that much more

She just can't seem to get away
But she's not scared, no
She slit her wrists to cure the pain

Did you ever dream of
The sirens of the ambulance
waking up in the emergency room
and hearing the doctors say
"she isn't going to make it"
just so you could find out who really
cared about you

It's hard to have no one care
how your day was.
It's hard to have no one
want to hold you when you feel alone.
It's hard not to have someone
to love the person you are.
When you don't

I’m too depressed to go on
You’ll be sorry when I’m gone

If a guy doesn’t
want to be friends
after he broke your heart,
it means he loves you too much,
or he never loved you from the start

And there are times when you
don’t want to wake up
because you know
that reality hurts

F.E.A.R:
Fuck Everything And Run

Sometimes it's easier
to act like you don't care,
than to admit that it's killing you

Everyone has problems;
it’s how you deal with
them, that separates you
from everybody else

And everyday I'm losing hope.
And each minute that passes by
gives me another reason to give up

It only hurts when you
start pretending it doesn't

Maybe your afraid to love because
your afraid of not being loved back

There’s an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in

Here's to you;
hope that someday
you'll realize
I really did care

Sick of crying
tired of trying
yeah I'm smiling
but inside I'm dying

I want to be remembered as
the girl who could always
make you smile
Even though her heart was broken..
The one who could brighten your world..
Even if she couldn't brighten her own

I’m not crying because I’m weak.
I’m crying because I’m so damn tired
of being too strong

2010-01-21T15:54:00.002+08:00

many have said to give up, forget abt it. but i won't, you mean everything to me. even if you make me look like a fool. i still love you to bits. i care, love, concern and need you. you're all i need. sometimes pushing me aside might hurt me that i tend to give up. but i dont know why whenever you left without a word it hurts me like hell.

2010-01-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

2010-01-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

2010-01-17T00:18:00.001+08:00

2010-01-16T17:59:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I believe that i can do anything,
yet other times I think i've got nothing good to bring,
but you look at my heart and you tell me
that i've got all you seek and it's easy to believe,
even though, i've got a couple dents in my fender,
got a couple rips in my jeans,
try to fit the pieces together,
but perfection is my enemy,
on my own i'm so clumsy,
but on your shoulders i can see,
I'm free to be me.

I know it's cold outside, but would you want to go for a ride?
Because this late night's just no fun without you.
And I just wanted to say thanks,
You're the only reason I've smiled in days.

It's overused. It's cliche. It's corny. It's just a line. It's illogical. It's troublesome. It's always too abrupt. It's never on cue. It's difficult to say. It will be held against you. It's too bold. It's often quite pathetic. It's amazing how, after everything, I love you still works.

If you're not happy with the person you're with,
Don't stay with them.
You're not magically going to wake up one morning
and decide you're going to be happy again.
Someone makes you that way.
Find the someone that makes you happy.

2010-01-16T11:08:00.000+08:00

whenever i listens to the song One Less Lonely Girl it reminds me of you.

2010-01-15T11:51:00.000+08:00

I want to start a fire in your heart tonight.
Oh, tell me why do I so yearn to cause trouble?
I need you to be mine in the summertime,
When the days are long and the nights are slow and sweet.

But why do you turn and shield your eyes?
Do I burn too brightly?
Oh, don't take my love lightly, for I mean every word.

You flicker, you amaze me.
Your lips illuminate me.
I want your eyes to tell me I'm the only flame.
My glow; it will attract you, my smoke will push you back
Until you call again, please arsonist, attack.

But why do you turn and shield your eyes?
Do I burn too brightly?
Oh, don't take my love lightly, for I mean every word.

I'll just light the match,
And the flames will catch...

But why do you turn and shield your eyes?
Do I burn too brightly?
Oh, don't take my love lightly, for I mean every word.

2010-01-12T07:48:00.000+08:00

i guess it's over?!

2009-12-29T12:31:00.001+08:00

I JUST WANNA HAVE FUN! :D

2009-12-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

You make me nervous... is this love?

2009-12-04T21:40:00.001+08:00

There isnt an hour that goes by, close to a minute
without the thought of you somewhere in it.

That was the day I stopped believing in love.
That kind of love. The love in books and films.
The love that tells us to abandon our lives and plans, all for one brief touch of Venus.
So often we fail at that kind of love.
The world just seems too fragile a place for it.
Perhaps, it's just that we are too fragile.

He was different.
He never said "I want to be friends."
After he said goodbye, it was like he knew,
he knew that he had broken my heart bad enough
when he saw my tears fall. He knew me well enough
that he just knew what to say. And when he
spoke, he looked me in the eyes and said,
"I hope you talk to me again someday."

You know the beautiful thing about love?
It's so powerful. Nothing else can make people do the things that love can make them do. it's the only emotion that can make people fight, give their all to something or someone. it's the only thing that can make people hold on when they would have otherwise given up. Love is strong, it is powerful, and it is rare. so when people find it, they marvel at the power of it. and they keep holding on, because it is the truest form of ecstacy. The world cannot survive without love. It's the only thing that can get people to hold on anymore.

2009-12-04T20:56:00.003+08:00

2009-12-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

2009-12-03T01:33:00.000+08:00

But I can't find the strength to speak,
'cause on the calender of your events,
I'm last week.

2009-12-03T01:21:00.002+08:00

the wrong move,
Be cool.

2009-12-03T01:00:00.001+08:00

im really giving up.

2009-12-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

I GIVE UP.

2009-11-28T23:39:00.006+08:00

KPOP (check em' out! on my playlist :D )

1. B2ST
B2ST (Boys 2 Search the Top; pronounced as beast) is a new group from Cube Entertainment.A 6 member group, its most well-known member is AJ/Lee Kikwang who was a solo artist until being placed in the group. Yoon Doo Joon, Yong Jun Hyung, Jang Hyun Seung, Yang Yo Seob, and Son Dong Woon make up the rest of the members.
2. MBLAQ
MBLAQ is a new 5-member boy band from J.Tune Entertainment produced by Rain.Members: Yang Seung Ho (leader)Lee JoonG.O.Mir (Cheol Yong)Cheon Dung
3. SHU-I
SHU-I (So Hot Union of Idols) is a South Korean 5 member band consisting of Hyungjun(pretty boy), Minho(main vocal), Jinsuk(dancer), Changhyun(charisma), and Insuk(leader). They debuted on September 11, 2009 with their digital single “Bomb Bomb Bomb”.
4. 4TOMORROW
4TOMORROW is a project group with members Han Seungyeon of Kara, Kim Hyuna of 4minute, UEE of After School, and Son Ga-in of Brown Eyed Girls.They released the digital single Tomorrow on October 7th, 2009.

2009-11-28T13:13:00.000+08:00

I miss how you never gave a shit,
but you always seemed to care.
I miss the way you would be such a dick,
but you were somehow always there.
I miss how we talked, for hours on end,
but most of all, more than anything,
I miss being just friends.

One day you're gonna look at me,
and say "wow. she was my
best friend." I'm going to look
at you, and think "wow, that
was the first boy I ever loved."

You're no longer my last phone call or text
message, no longer my last kiss, and
no longer the last person i slept with. Yet
somehow, you're still the first thing on my mind.

You'll regret it.
Maybe not today,
Maybe not tomorrow,
But soon and for the rest of your life.

I think I'll go anti-love
I Mean...Who Needs It...
butterflies in the tummy
&&& hearts skipping beats
That cant be safe.

2009-11-16T02:45:00.001+08:00

2009-11-16T02:41:00.001+08:00

2009-11-16T01:46:00.002+08:00

2009-11-14T03:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes I just wanna give up.
but you pull me through together.

2009-11-13T01:02:00.001+08:00

NEW friends met. loveit.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ken & doug! :D
loveyouguys<3

2009-11-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU!

I hate the way you stand close to me and have the eye to eye.
I hate it when you gave me the breathless moments.
I hate the way you make my heartbeat fast.
I hate the way you make me laugh with your sweet smile.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate the way you make me feel secure.
And even worst I hate the warm hugs.
I hate it when only you understands me.
And I hate when you're not around.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

2009-11-06T00:35:00.002+08:00

For the past few days or I should say this week, has been a hectic moments of my school life! One after another, and just now I went for Guitar Club performance at RP. it was really awesome! They were really really really extremely fantastic! loveyouguys(:

2009-10-31T23:05:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I had a wonderful day @ Orchid country club with my malay dance friends! Though it was really a short performance but I still had the best time with you gals.. we shared a room with the bollywood & salsa dancers and the accapella group. there was like abt 20 plus people in the room.. I enjoyed every moment we laughed, talked and danced together :D loveyou people. missyou bestfriends!

2009-10-26T00:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AFIQ!!! sweet18

2009-10-25T22:18:00.003+08:00

2009-10-25T02:27:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY yanabelle(: sweet18

HAPPY BIRTHDAY kamal :D sweet20

2009-10-16T09:26:00.002+08:00

up till today I still do miss my attachment friends and the memories I had.
lovelovelove you guys, missin' ya all:D

started school few days back and the lessons seems fine but soon my schedule is getting pack with dance. I hope I could do better for dance since it's my passion of all time, coz I haven't been dancing all out. But yestd for Balinese dance it was fantastic, I could remember the steps and do it properly. the best I've ever dance lately.

2009-10-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

first day of my 2nd semester!

2009-10-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF!!

2009-10-11T02:35:00.001+08:00

Haram-haramkah aku
Bila hatiku jatuh cinta
Tuhan pegangi hatiku
Biar aku tak jadi melanggar
Aku cinta pada dirinya
Cinta pada pandang pertama
Sifat manusia ada padaku
Aku bukan Tuhan

*
Haram-haramkah aku
Bila aku terus menantinya
Biar waktu berakhir
Bumi dan langit berantakan

**
Aku tetap ingin dirinya
Tak mungkin aku berdusta
Hanya Tuhan yang bisa jadikan
Yang tak mungkin menjadi mungkin

Reff:
Aku hanya ingin cinta yang halal
Di mata dunia juga akhirat
Biar aku sepi aku hampa aku basi
Tuhan sayang aku
Aku hanya ingin cinta yang halal
Dengan dia tentu atas ijinNya
Ketika cinta bertasbih
Tuhan beri aku cinta
Ku menanti cinta

2009-10-11T02:03:00.003+08:00

though I still feel a little disturbed.
I must learn how to handle this situation in time to come.
If not I would be broken!
no way I'm gonna let myself down!

2009-10-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

You left and laughed it all of, like nothing happened
You turned your back on me
I tried my best to get you out of my mind
Now the day has arrived, you want to return to me

You were all lies
It only has been short while, but it became so obvious
According to my eyes and even my body felt it
I became fed up with you

Being betrayed like this, like this, like this
And to believe you like that, like that, like that
You left me like that, like that, like that
I don't know any longer who you are
Being betrayed like this, like this, like this
And to believe you like that, like that, like that
You left me like that, like that, like that
I don't know any longer who you are

You smiled
You hold me like nothing had happened
There were only two people
You seduced me
You want to hold me like the old days

You were all lies
It only has been short while, but it became so obvious
According to my eyes and even my body felt it
You reached repeatedly out for someone else

Being betrayed like this, like this, like this
And to believe you like that, like that, like that
You left me like that, like that, like that
I don't know any longer who you are
Being betrayed like this, like this, like this
And to believe you like that, like that, like that
You left me like that, like that, like that
I don't know any longer who you are

(No, that's not right
It's really like that
I have no one else
Why are you like this?)

I hate this behaviour
I don't buy it anymore
Now, I don't believe you
Once again, I don't believe you

Being betrayed like this, like this, like this
And to believe you like that, like that, like that
You left me like that, like that, like that
I don't know any longer who you are

(It looks like I believe you
You know, it's all the same
Go your own way)

2009-10-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

2009-10-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

I don't have to find out I already knew that this was coming.
So it's nothing new coming from you both.
oh well wish you guys luck I guess.

2009-10-10T03:07:00.001+08:00

Vampire Weekend

2009-10-10T02:57:00.000+08:00

The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

2009-10-10T02:31:00.002+08:00

The Airborne Toxic Event

im in love with this indie band(:

2009-10-10T02:00:00.002+08:00

I was feeling rather down on my last day of attachment. It seems like when I first entered the company. A complete silent, quiet and lonely. But seeing my working colleagues brings me back to a smile and laughter. I just love being with them. I learnt great things for the past 3 weeks, friendship, hard work & commitment. Working is not all about committing, it's also about having fun and at the same time build close relations! It really does gives me the spirit to upgrade myself and do better in everything because I don't normally exceeds my capability I would just stop where I can and no improvement. So right now I believe I am capable of improving and upgrading my potential it's just whether I really want to do it or not. I am so going to take a step higher!

2009-10-08T00:56:00.001+08:00

ATTACHMENT!!

2009-10-07T20:04:00.003+08:00

Oh! well, it has come to an end,
I'm gonna be back to school next monday,
darn it!!

missin' the daily job, the uncles, aunties & friends met.
yes jeff, I am in fact gonna miss everyone at work and the
experience I've had for the past three weeks!
And thank you for accompanying me at work :D
hope to see you guys one day!

2009-10-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

im so gonna miss you. heh.
wish i could hug ya but oh nvm!
loveyoursmile :D

2009-10-02T01:39:00.001+08:00

night raye @ noorizan's crib :D

2009-10-01T20:14:00.000+08:00

WORK IS FUN! :D

2009-09-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

If you go away on this summer's day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird's song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been, or will be again
We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

2009-09-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

I aint selfish.
I thought about people's feelings so much that everyone starts to get over me.
I tried to be alright, I tried to believe you.
But you didn't change you didnt.
tt means you never did understood what I really am bothered.
you are sad everyone's there for you.
Im sad, hurt, deprived.
who is there for me? when I need you people?
where have you all been?
it has always been you and you.
so why dont you spare me some space for myself.
let me have my own in my own space.
since I don't have anyone compared to you.
not comparing but thats the fact.
so I really hope you could leave me alone.
no matter how much you said you understood I see hurt more and proving me that you dont.
I have to ignore you. coz I'm feeling hurt.
If you notice that day it has always been you here and there.
where was I to be seen?
When did I even exist there?
Do people know I'm there too?
I must have been a jerk to try so hard to let people notice I was there.
A completely embarrassment.
you never would understand me.
leave.

2009-09-27T15:46:00.001+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

2009-09-27T00:38:00.003+08:00

interesting day,
sang like a mad woman who is drunk,
but for the sake of heartaches,
let it all out with fake smiles and laughter,
when everything seems to be a completely mess.
damn!
shouldn't have trusted words which are a bunch of bullshit.
leavin a deep impact which never expected.
loveit hateit. youlied.
it already happened.

2009-09-26T03:22:00.002+08:00

as day goes by my feelings grew,
my heart beat fast,
but I pretended it all didn't happen.
will I be able to hold it any longer?

2009-09-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

super adorable, love his smile
touched by his sincerity.. :D

2009-09-25T02:15:00.002+08:00

a new love seemed to comes around...
what's next?!
check out for more updates :D

2009-09-23T00:19:00.001+08:00

1st day of attachment.

cuts all over my hand and fingers.
but excited and happy to make new friends.
experience of working is really amazing.

2009-09-15T11:57:00.001+08:00

miss miss miss*

2009-09-15T11:40:00.002+08:00

UPDATES!!

2009-09-11T01:20:00.001+08:00

Seandainya saja kau bisa mengerti
Apa mau aku sekali ini
Mungkin aku takkan merasa bersalah
Karena telah putuskanmu

Cinta memang tak bisa ditebak
Jalannya membuatku bingung selalu
Karena sekali tersakiti
Pasti hilang sudah cinta itu jadi benci
Sia-siakah ini tak tau pasti
Akankah berubah nyatanya rasaku tetap sama
Masihlah sama terhadap kamu sayang

2009-09-11T00:25:00.003+08:00

I never knew life could be like that.
he was the one thing i followed through with
in my life, the one thing i didn't give up on.
I was good at loving him.

So i looked back on us today. i don't know why i missed you, why i wanted you back. because from where i stand, no one was having fun. sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, i trusted you less. i spent hours, days, even months of our relationship worrying about who you might leave me for because there was always someone better than me. i spent a year trying to be the perfect girlfriend until i couldn't anymore. my body tried to tell me it had to stop - our relationship was literally making me sick. but now i'm free, and i'm sorry, i did love you, but i had to get out. it was like poison slowly seeping through my body, infecting every possible organ, finally getting to my brain, telling me that this was it. this was the end. we weren't having fun anymore, and that's what you wanted right? i knew it was over before you said it, sweetheart. and i thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. because you don't deserve me or my love. goodbye my first love.
Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.

Love isn't true if it's that easy for you
to let go of me, because when you
told me you loved me I believed it.
And when i said it back
I meant it with all my heart.

What happened to us, you know?
I don't know who I am anymore or how I got here.
I miss who I used to be.
I wanna have a home again, you know?
And real friends. You know,
the kind of friendships we used to believe in.
I miss that, and I miss you.
I guess I just miss all of it.

2009-09-10T23:35:00.003+08:00

REUNION with LOVELY BRPS FRIENDS <3

On tuesday evening, is the day that I've been waiting for. The day where my primary school friends get together after so long and spending a day with them makes my day even brighter and happier. Seeing the faces of my old mates just gives me the excitement of knowing whats new in their life. There were we at Nana Restaurant where the reunion begins. The laughter, smiles and excitement. I was late as usual due to dance (my love and passion). I cant miss a day without dancing it would be empty and lonely. Ainul, Nadiah, Noorizan, Diyanah, Sholihin, Haikal, Khalnain, Junaidi, Iryani & Khidhir were present. Even so many others that I was wanting to meet wasn't there I still have a great time getting the updates! hehe:D well we went to the Ion mall and Shaw House McCafe. At McCafe we drank and talked about the good old times. I never knew that the guys were super happening. It's really amazing how we all remembered those days together and do the silliest things. I had the most amazing and really happiest day ever!! hope we could all get together again for bowling or what so ever ya!! <3

2009-09-06T01:41:00.001+08:00

Lying that you love me, lying that you miss me
Lying that you are coming back, all that you say are lies
Lying that you will watch out for me, lying that you cant live without me,
Why did you promise all these things if you were going to leave like this.

It has to be you, no, no, it can only be you.
Why do you push me away, why do you try to put my hand down.
How did this happen, how did it become like this.
I shouldn’t do this, I know, but I just can’t let you go.

Lying that you love me, lying that you miss me
Lying that you are coming back, all that you say are lies
Lying that you will watch out for me, lying that you cant live without me,
Why did you promise all these things if you were going to leave like this.

Even though I wish for this to be a dream, it’s no use.
(*Literally it means ‘Even though I wish for this to be a lie)
What should I do, what should I do when you leave.

Was it like this to begin with, cold-blooded love
(*Literally “love that leaves coldly”)
You are so bad, you are such a bad person,
Making me cry like this.

Lying that you love me, lying that you miss me
Lying that you are coming back, all that you say are lies
Lying that you will watch out for me, lying that you cant live without me,
Why did you promise all these things if you were going to leave like this.

Lying to me to leave, lying to me to not look back,
Lying to me to never look for you again, all of them are lies
Lying to me to forget you, lying to me we are all over.
No matter how many times I think it through, I cannot live without you, please come back.

I I I I feel like dying, I can’t do anything without you.
I I I I just keep crying, the word “goodbye” doesn’t come into my head
(*Literally “I cannot admit myself to say good bye”)
Again, my heart aches, I think I’m gonna go crazy.
Please come back, come back to me.

2009-09-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

I had the most splendid time ever. Today, I break-fast with sanjay at lau pat sat had satay, bbq chicken wings and teh tarik! hehe :D the most fun part is we never stop talking. Basically I think I'm the only one who is talking the most but yea.. I feel a little lighter now pouring all out and sharing everything. glad that we're back we were last time! thnks for the day!(:

2009-08-31T13:21:00.001+08:00

&&& I really wish you'd come back.
Not to say hi, or to tell me how good you're doing without me;
just to stop by, and to give me the one thing of mine you never returned.
My heart.

2009-08-31T13:19:00.001+08:00

It feels like someone kicked you in the stomach,
feels like your heart stopped beating,
feels like that dream you know the one when you
are falling and you want so desperately to wake up
before you hit the ground but its all out of your control,
you cant trust anything anymore,
no one is who they say they are,
your life is changed forever,
and the only thing to come out of the whole
ugly experience is no one will be able to
break your heart like that again

2009-08-31T13:17:00.001+08:00

I was nothing more than
your favorite soundtrack. I
was played till I skipped and
scratched on nearly every track.
You pulled me out whenever you
needed something for a party or
when life hurt you a little too much.
Well, I'm touched, but I'd love to
be more than background music.

2009-08-31T13:15:00.003+08:00

I admit I was never the perfect one
I was never always there
I didn’t make you smile at times,
But there’s one thing I admit I did;
I was the best person I could be for you.

And when your world seems to
come crashing down, and the
people you thought you trusted
have betrayed you, smile. Smile
and make them wonder why.

2009-08-31T13:15:00.001+08:00

I'll tell you this; People don't fall in love
with what's right in front of them.
People want the dream. What they can't have.
The more unattainable, the more attractive.

2009-08-31T13:14:00.000+08:00

She watches him from afar. the way his eyes brighten as he smiles,
the way he laughs as if he had just heard the funniest thing ever.
she wanted to tell him how she felt,
but she's too scared to know the answer.
she's the girl who's sitting next to him,
listening to him as he tells her about another girl.
about how he's falling for her, and this girl gets tense.
Because that's exactly how she feels about him.

2009-08-31T13:12:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna be like every other girl and put sad,
I miss you, quotes in my profile because I'm stronger than that.
And I won't trash talk you to my friends either because
you were my best. And I'm not going to put winky faces in
my away messages that have no meaning just so you'll be jealous.
And yeah, it'll be a while before I'm completely over you.
But when the day comes that you don't cross my mind,
and I finally do forget you for good, please don't remember me.

2009-08-31T13:10:00.001+08:00

Everytime I see you walking towards me, my heart jumps.
Then I remember, you're not walking to me anymore.

2009-08-30T23:41:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIIRTHDAY RYAN HAIKAL!(:

2009-08-30T18:10:00.002+08:00

Stop talking about love.
Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody.
It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything.
What you feel only matters to you.
It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters.
It's the only thing that counts.

and remember girls, the day he messages you on aim
don't reply to him, remember the tears he made you cry with simple words
the day he calls you, to apologize for the last time
remind yourself of everytime you know he lied
and everytime he tries to pull you back in
remind yourself of every girl, of every lie and every fucking tear,
because of one asshole, who thought he'd be cool and date more
than one girl;; don't be the weak one, stand up and let him know
'I've moved on, i don't need you"

Here's to being lied to. To being walked on, used, promised something, & fed bullshit. Here's to seeing the best in him; not believing that he could possibly be as awful as he turned out to be. Here's to trusting over & over & over again because you really wanted to believe that what he did was a mistake, that he's changed. He won't change. The way he is & was is the way he will always be. If he lies to you, he doesn't feel you are good enough to hear the truth. If he plays you, you don't mean enough to him for him to be with just you. Breaking a promise means he is okay with disappointing you. He knows what he is doing when he is doing it. He knows what will hurt you & he does it anyway. As much as he says he does, he doesn't really care about you. Here's to him saying he's "sorry". With him, it's one of those words that is said so many times; it doesn't even sound like a word anymore. The only reason he is sorry is because he was caught in his lie. Excuses mean nothing; Nothing he could possibly come up with could fix what he did. Now take this as a lesson learned: let him go &
move the fuck on with your life.

2009-08-27T00:52:00.000+08:00

And if we were really meant to be,
well, then we just defied destiny.
It's not that our love died, it just
never really bloomed.

2009-08-27T00:39:00.001+08:00

I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've takin all I could take (I've takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh

2009-08-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

I think I noticed when things started to change. The hugs were quicker, the phone calls were shorter and weren't every night. We didn't hurry to the place we said we'd meet. The I love you's felt more like a forced, daily routine, and really had no meaning. When we saw each other, the smiles weren't as bright, or as big. Our thoughts weren't only of each other. We seemed uninterested, we felt unloved. We had too many doubts. I think I noticed when things started to change.

2009-08-19T01:27:00.001+08:00

butterscotch!